Stealing this from a blogger friend, because I need this right now...

The Thanksgiving holiday is one of my favorites...food, football, family, friends and lots of fun. But, originally, it was meant to be a day to pause and give authentic thanks to God. Unfortunately, for many, including myself, thanksgiving is more of a one-day holiday that a way of life. I don't know about you, but I've been blessed beyond comprehension, and even in the unwelcome moments of life, I have so much to be thankful for.What would it look like if I ONLY spoke words of gratitude the entire week of Thanksgiving? If I went so far as to look at a pile of laundered clothes that awaits my folding and putting up, a task I normally hate, and instead think and speak out loud, “God, thank you for these clothes, for providing covering.” When my daughter voicing her grumpiness, “God, thank you that she has a voice that works and you are shaping her own unique personality.” If every time next week I see a person, I tell them why I am thankful to God they are in my life.

Can I do this? Of course I can. It will have to be a choice, for so often I let the negative thoughts overtake my mood for the day. But when I think about it, it makes so much sense. There are women out there aching for a baby to hold in their arms, and I have been blessed with five, and all the messes, chaos, and sleepless nights that come with it. There are people living on the streets with just the clothes on their backs, and we have been blessed to be able to provide the clothes that make up the piles, the food that stains the dishes in the sink, the toys scattered on the floor. There are people who would give anything, who seek out, unfinished homes, so that they may have shelter from the cold and night. There are people, like the sweet checker at the local grocery store that greeted us with a smile and a "How ya doin today baby?", who don't know they have blood pressure problems until it is too late to do anything about it. There are people who can't get a job and would love to have work to take home with them. Lonely people who would love to have a schedule packed with things to do, parties to go to, performances to give. There are unsaved all over the world that do not know that matchless grace and love of God and seek love in the arms of others, in needles, in a bottle, in food.

How blessed am I, and how much do I take it for granted? This week, I pledge to live a life of thankfulness and gratitude. I know it won't be easy, that I will have to adopt a new outlook, that I will fail, probably daily. But that I serve an awesome God. A God who forgives. A God who gives second chances. Who loves me unconditionally. And for that, above all, I am truly thankful.

And cheer is finally over....

Last weekend, Sarah wrapped up her cheer season with the state tournament. This weekend, Madeline's team competed in their one and only competition of the season. This one was held at ELCA, a nice change for us, as we didn't have to drive for hours to get there. Neither did we have to sit for hours. This was a CCA tournament (Christian Cheerleaders of America) and it was short and sweet.

Speaking of sweet....here is how Charlotte spent the first little bit of the competition, the same way she spent most of Sarah's.

Hannah, also so pretty in pink and pigtails, was not happy to get her picture taken.
UNTIL...Maranda got there!

Here's Maddy before the competition started.

And during competition

Charlotte did wake up to watch part of the competition. Can I tell you how much I love love love this picture????

Maddy's team won their division and grand champions in their age group. A sweet ending to a sweet season!

Tonight, we'll watch the Georgia game as a family and then tomorrow morning head out to take the big kids to meet PawPaw in Tuscaloosa. They are super excited, and me? Not so much. Things just aren't the same without all of them home!

A Few Hannah Funnies....

Because she's cracking us up lately, and I want to remember these!
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Hannah: (looking sad)
Me: What's wrong, Hannah?
Hannah: I really really want to make a mess. Can I please make a mess?
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Hannah: I'm scared of the dark Daddy.
Daryl: It's OK, Hannah. Jesus is with you.
Hannah: He's scared too!
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Hannah: Why did God make curly hair and straight hair?
Sarah: Well, I think he just wanted to make us all different.
Hannah: You have curly hair, I have straight hair, Mommy has straight hair, Maddy has straight hair, Joshy has straight hair, and Daddy has a little hair!
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Wishing I could think of a snappy title....

But really...just. so. fried. right now. It was a busy weekend following a busy week. It wasn't supposed to be all that busy. Just State Cheer Competition in Columbus, but I didn't count on that taking all day. But then you throw in church x 2, laundry, housework, kids, and yes, even exercise, and my weekend was gone before I knew it.

Here is sweet baby Charlotte in her Gymboree strawberry outfit, that was given to me when I first found out I was pregnant by my sweet friend, Melinda. Don't you just love the hat????

Hannah cheering on her big sis and being a bit camera shy.
It was a huge auditorium and we were way way way way up high, so this is the best shot we got!

And after they performed, waiting for the results. Don't know what we were talking about...lovely picture, dontcha think???

It was a good trip overall. The girls didn't win but did great, we had some good family time, and Charlotte didn't make a peep the whole way there or back. We also ate lunch in what has to be the swankiest Burger King I have ever been in (never fear...a side salad and apple slices for me!)

Speaking of which...today is weigh in day and I lost another two pounds this past week. Eight down, too many to count left to go!

The First of the Lasts

And so it begins....the first of the lasts of Josh's high school career. Sniff sniff. Sigh. It's inevitable, I know, but still. It feels so, I don't know...final.

Tonight was the end of the season cross country banquet at school. I didn't make it to his last cross country meet, and I regret that. The last meet I made it to was the night before I had Charlotte. Anyways...the banquet was tonight. It was, as cross country seems to be, totally and completely laid back and casual. They had black and white pictures taken throughout the season scattered on all the tables. We found three of Josh on our table and brought them home.

Here's Josh and his certificate. I wasn't fast enough with the camera to get him actually getting it, but you get the idea.
And here he is with the other seniors on the team--Cameron (his screamo music buddy), Luke Cathy (of Chick Fil A fame), Chris Mench, and Luke Baker (1st place in state).

Charlotte was the only one to come with us to the banquet. At $15 a person, our family is officially too big for all of us to go. The big girls and Hannah went home with Nanny and PawPaw and Charlotte hung out with us. We caught her sweet smile this time...so sweet!

Do you not just want to eat her up???? Speaking of eating....

In the diet news...Monday is weigh in day for me, and as of today (weigh in #1), I am down six pounds. Pretty good, I'd say. Also went to the doctor for a fasting blood test and a blood pressure recheck. She was happy with my numbers and I don't have to go back for three months. Good news!

Long long loooonnnnnggggg day, but in the end, a good one. Looking back on tonight, I am wishing that in the last four years I would have spent less time stressing over the busyness of my life and more time enjoying the time with my family, even if it was in the car, at the ballpark, wrestling meet, cheer competition, etc. Hindsight is 20/20.

Another Competition Saturday

Today marked Sarah's return to cheering competitively, the first time since her injury the first week in October. So the little girls and I packed up and headed to Forsyth for the Regional Championship. The girls did well and came away with the first place in their division. But better than that, Sarah came away, knee in tact! Here is a picture of her in the stands. All the other pictures of them competing turned out blurry. We were not allowed to use flash photography, so I couldn't use the trusty "auto" setting on the camera!

Charlotte spent most of the day doing this...which does not bode well for sleeping tonight, and of course, it is my night. Don't know how the girl does it...cheerleading competitions have to be the loudest of loud sports and she snoozes on through them. I guess that's because she's used to so much noise at our house! Ha!
Hannah took all of her little toys that her sweet cousin Benji had given to her way back in September and spread them out on the bleachers.

We go back to the doctor for Sarah's knee on Monday, and hopefully will get the "official" OK to go back to cheer...and then it's on to State Championship next weekend in Columbus!

I go back to the doctor on Tuesday morning for a recheck of my blood pressure and a fasting blood draw. Turns out that not only do I have high blood pressure, but high cholesterol too. I was feeling better about my blood pressure, despite the rise last week and the increased medicine. I was finally not worrying about it all the time. Then on Tuesday, it spiked again. Also Tuesday, I had to have an echocardiogram done on my heart to check for structural damage, and thankfully, all looked normal. And then Thursday the dr. called to tell me my cholesterol was high.

tick...tick...tick...

That's how I felt...that I must be this walking time bomb, just waiting to have a heart attack. I was mad at myself for letting myself get to this point, frustrated with my body for not reacting the way that it always has, scared that I was a heart attack waiting to happen. (Daryl says that he knows where Maddy gets her dramatic streak...I'm just not seeing it...)

This past week, I've had all of this confirmation that my lifestyle needs to change. First the medical tests, the blood pressure, the cholesterol, and the ever present pain in my back and knees. Then, more confirmation, this time from first graders, and you know...when a child tells you something, you know it is true. Six year olds have no tact. So when, in one day one of them tells me that I look like a grandmother and another gets in trouble on the playground for hitting another child who said his teacher was fat, you know it's time to change.

But most of all, this is my motivation....

and this.

Now don't get me wrong. I love my big kids every bit as much as my little ones. But they got the young mom, the mom with energy, the mom who ran around with them and played with them, the mom who could play airplane and sit on the floor, and the mom who wasn't tired all the time. It's bad enough that Chick Fil A waitresses are mistaking me for Charlotte's grandmother. (And I'd like to thank my wonderful husband for pointing that out to me and laughing hysterically and then retelling the story to all of our friends!) I won't miss out on their childhoods. My desire to be there for them, to be a mom that they can be proud of, inside and out, has to be more than my desire for that cookie, that Chinese food, that Reese's cup, and yes, even that Diet Coke. It has to.

I pondered just putting it all out there...you know...the number. "Just type it out...let everyone know...then you have to lose the weight to save face!" Then came the echo on Thursday and I had to tell the tech doing the test...in front of my husband. And yeah, I figured I probably had to tell the truth and not fudge it like on my driver's license. So I just closed my eyes, said it, and didn't look at him. Didn't want to see what he thought, his reaction,...just couldn't bear to see it. So yeah...putting it all out there...not gonna happen.

Just know that in addition to some pretty average pictures of some pretty amazing kids, you're probably going to be getting a pretty good dose of diet rambling as well. I'll try, though, to keep the ranting to a minimum. But hey, five days without nary a drop of Diet Coke....I'm just sayin...

I realized today that I have totally and completely broken my New Year's resolution to post every day. And thinking of something to post about every day is tough. We often have days that are just unremarkable. Nothing worth photographing. Nothing worth recording for posterity. Today is one of those days. Now that Halloween is over, it's like the calm after the storm (and yes, I do know that this is backwards!) So, instead, a meme that someone sent to me last week.....


1. I’ve come to realize that my chest-size. . . is far less important than its made out to be at the age of 13.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job. . .is much more than a career, but a calling...and defines me much more than it should.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving alone. . . I like the fact that I can control the radio station selection.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need. . . to spend a good three hours in my closet, organizing the chaos.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost. . . the ability to stay up later than 10:00 pm. Sad. I've turned into my grandmother.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when. . . I compare myself to other people. And I do this waaaayyyy to much.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk. . . someone has slipped something into my diet coke. I don't drink.

8. I’ve come to realize that money. . . goes just as fast...no matter how much we have.

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people. . . enjoy the drama.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always. . . NOT. (see above)

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s). . . have a lot in common with each other, and not so much with me, but I still wish we were closer.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom. . . was and is a much better mother than I will ever be. And that is OK. June Cleaver I will never be, but I think so far, my kids have turned out pretty great.

13. I’ve come to realize that cell phones. . . are a mother's best friend. I love it that I can always get in touch with them.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . . I slept for 9 1/2 hours and actually dreamt for the first time in weeks.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . . I enjoy falling asleep with sweet three year old breath on my neck.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking. . . how much I enjoy my kids now that they are older, and I really didn't think I would. I have great teenagers!

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad. . . is one of the most generous people I know, and that I have been blessed by his generosity way more than I deserve.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . . it is totally addicting. I love facebook...and catching up with old friends. And strangely, looking at their pictures. Funny how all of the things that mattered in high school don't so much today.

19. I’ve come to realize that today. . . was so much better than yesterday in so many ways.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight. . .there is a big bright full moon. Anyone who is a teacher or an insomniac knows what that means.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow. . .I will spend an hour on a bus,carsick, with 80 first graders, on the way to Rock Ranch. Five hours later, I will spend an hour a bus, carsick, with about 10 first graders on the way back to school. I love that almost every child will have a parent present on the field trip.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to. . . lose massive amounts of weight, wear a bikini, run a 5K, feel good about myself again. I also want to raid Hannah's candy bucket, but that would defeat the purpose, now, wouldn't it?

23. I’ve come to realize that the some people… will never get it.

24. I’ve come to realize that life. . . really is too short, like everyone always said. And that I've wasted too much precious time being afraid.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend. . . was heavenly. No school work.

26. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset. . . is the Grease soundtrack. This movie can always make me happy.

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends. . . that I have now are so much different than those that I had ten years ago.

28. I’ve come to realize that this year. . . has been amazing and amazingly difficult, all in one.

29. I’ve come to realize that my ex(s)...paved the road for my life today. And as hurtful as it was, I would not change it for a thing.

30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should. . . ...choose my clothes for tomorrow tonight, thus avoiding the "stand in the closet and cry because everything I try on is either too big, too small, missing a button, stained, or dirty. OR...I can't find it" routine.

31. I’ve come to realize that I love. . . my kids much more than I thought I could.

32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand. . . the secret to a clean house. or where all of the socks go.

33. I’ve come to realize my past. . . affects me much more than I would like. And I hate it that it has that much control.

34. I’ve come to realize that parties. . . are scary when you are shy.

35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified. . . dying and leaving my children motherless. Even though I know that I would be running to the arms of my savior, for now, I would much rather have my children running into mine.

36. I’ve come to realize that my life. . . is far too amazing and complex to answer in one sentence. God is good.