Weeping Willow

Yes...that is my favorite kind of tree. As a child, I always wanted one in our yard. I think I must have read a book with a willow tree in it, since I had visions of laying under a tree lost in a book. Since then, I've always loved them. I still hope that someday I will have a willow tree in my front yeard. But anyways...I digress. For the title does not refer to a tree, but to ME today. I cried five times during church....once during choir practice, once when Josh gave his testimony about his camp experience (that boy makes me so proud!), then again when the choir sang the song that made me cry earlier. And I am not a pretty crier, and there I was on the front row. Then, during the message, I cried when the pastor talked about a baby born with Down's, and then again...with tears of joy...when one of our AWANA girls came forward to accept Christ. I don't know whether it's because the hormones are kicking in, or because I got little sleep last night or if it's nerves about tomorrow.

Tomorrow is our first ultrasound. And while I know that it is routine, and I have no cause to worry that everything won't be alright, I still fear that we will go in and there will be no heartbeat. I don't know why...but I am. And it has just hit home how very much I really want this baby. After all the doubts, all of the disbelief, all of the wondering...I really want this so much. Please pray with me that I can hand this over to God and rest in His peace.

As for the pictures of the day...Maddy is my subject. Two self portraits and a picture of her doing her toe touch!